I'm awake.

And when I'm up awake late enough, I get to contemplating.



I get sad and reminiscent often.

It's definitely Lenten time.

Haven't posted in while. Still don't know what to say...

No red meat.

No going to Kotaku.com or Facebook.

No non-diet soda.

No chocolate.

Some more personal...

I've spent half of the past week coding.

I've had three tests, back to back to back.

I. Am. Tired.

What may come.

"Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it."
-George Santayana






Wise words Mr. Santayana. How ever, I am compelled to disagree. I think he was close. I will make my own modification.









"Those who cannot remember the past, are only the only ones surprised when it happens again."
-John Vincent Muniz









I added the Vincent because my middle name is cool.

Time, straight line.

History, circular...most likely spheroid.

If you learn about the past and history or you remain ignorant, has nothing to do with the fact that that you are fated for it to happen again. Now of course I do not mean exact same course of action and events taking place, that's why I mentioned history is most likely spheroid. The trip from point A to point B may not be exactly the same, but when it comes down to it, it's all just a bunch of circles. Calculus teaches that.

Alot of things in my life, seem to just repeat. (Especially my classes, but that's a different kettle 'o fish.) For middle school onward, I seem to just be stuck in this loop. It's not necessarily bad. Just a little too predictable now. If I graphed all high and low points of it all, I would end up with this sine wave of...fortune, for lack of better words. (Boy, I'm sure not skimping out on the math terminology in this post.) Condemned has such a finite connotation to it, doesn't it? Condemned. I don't feel so much condemned, per se, as much as I feel screwed over. It like repeating history is just a way of nature, and I can only have it run its course. After a while, you just know what is going to happen, in a general sense. You accept the fortune coming your way and brace for the downfall. I am not quite sure what I want to say in the post here, I'm probably just really bored, I have just noticed so many parallelisms that occur in my life and think that it cannot be all simply attributed to coincidence.

SO, I have deduced it down to fate.

As soon I figure out how to change that, I'll finally be able to break; out of that loop.

(It's as if my blogging corresponds to some English paper I have to write, but I actually just like to start things with a quote. This is all really what just pops into my head.)