Friday, May 28, 2010

I like it when people understand.

I was a little bored at work. So I decided to IM my friend, which I normally do, only this time I changed it up a little bit.


(10:38:00 AM) johnny156: Well, if it isn't Mika.
(10:38:11 AM) Mika: why hello there
(10:45:43 AM) johnny156: I can't believe you have the guts to show your face around here again ...
(10:46:00 AM) johnny156: Not after what you did to my family.
(10:46:04 AM) Mika: i can't believe you have guts
(10:47:24 AM) johnny156: Me?! ME?! You're the one who ran away! When we needed you the most.
(10:48:38 AM) Mika: you... you would think that.
(10:48:42 AM) Mika: it's not like you can understand
(10:49:27 AM) johnny156: I understand loud and clear! You only care about yourself, and your money!
(10:49:54 AM) Mika: money?! is THAT what you think this is about?!
(10:50:49 AM) johnny156: Don't lie. He told me everything.
(10:51:09 AM) Mika: what?!
(10:51:11 AM) Mika: who did?!
(10:51:16 AM) Mika: who did this?!
(10:52:13 AM) johnny156: A certain someone ... I think you know him from the war.
(10:52:29 AM) Mika: *from the war*
(10:52:31 AM) Mika: *from the war*
(10:52:34 AM) Mika: *from the war*
(10:52:42 AM) Mika: *enter FLASHBACK sequence*
(10:52:58 AM) johnny156: *disembodied voice* NOOOOOO!!!!
(10:53:10 AM) Mika: OH MY....
(10:53:14 AM) Mika: H MY GOD!
(10:53:16 AM) johnny156: YOU HAVE TO TAKE COVER!
(10:53:23 AM) Mika: NO!
(10:53:27 AM) Mika: i can't leave you!
(10:53:33 AM) Mika: the captain said to STAY TOGETHER
(10:53:40 AM) Mika: LOOK OUT FOR YOUR COMRADES.
(10:53:48 AM) Mika: i can't leave you here w/ your blown up legs.
(10:53:51 AM) Mika: you'll die!
(10:54:20 AM) johnny156: Mika, I died when you chose him over me... NOW GO!
(10:54:30 AM) johnny156: RUN!
(10:54:45 AM) Mika: ... no.... NOOOOOOOOOOOO
(10:54:47 AM) Mika: *runs away*
(10:54:55 AM) Mika: NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(10:55:01 AM) Mika: *exit flashback sequence*
(10:55:10 AM) Mika: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
(10:56:15 AM) johnny156: Old man Two Stubs has plenty of stories to tell, doesn't he Mika?
(10:56:32 AM) Mika: noo... noo.. *shakes head*
(10:56:36 AM) Mika: i thought i could leave the past behind
(10:56:43 AM) Mika: i wanted to start a NEW LIFE
(10:56:45 AM) Mika: away from it all!
(10:57:11 AM) johnny156: Away ... alone ... how you like it.
(10:57:55 AM) Mika: yeah.. well.
(10:58:00 AM) Mika: you know what, john?
(10:58:04 AM) Mika: i'm not afraid to run anymore
(10:58:07 AM) Mika: i realized long ago
(10:58:11 AM) Mika: that sometimes, that's the best solution
(10:58:13 AM) Mika: and now..
(10:58:18 AM) Mika: i'm going to run again.
(10:58:24 AM) Mika: im meeting some guys at the park
(10:58:40 AM) Mika: we're going to pretend we were kids again
(10:58:52 AM) Mika: and remember happier times.
(10:59:08 AM) Mika: (this is all true btw. haha. i really am going to the park soon)
(10:59:33 AM) johnny156: What's done is done. Take your money and leave.
(11:00:31 AM) johnny156: The raiders are gone, my sister is gone. We'll make it on our own, without you.
(11:00:46 AM) Mika: i'm sorry.
(11:00:51 AM) Mika: i never meant for it to be this way.
(11:00:59 AM) Mika: *walk away into the sunset*
(11:01:42 AM) johnny156: *shimmering tear down my face*
(11:01:56 AM) johnny156: Get out of here, before it's too late...
(11:02:02 AM) Mika: FIN.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Supression.

Back in high school people used to call me "Jolly John."

"Don't be angry."

"Don't be like that."

All my life I've been told never to be mad. All my life I've been told never to be angry. Straight to the point where I simply wasn't allowed. I have seen other people angry. At me, at others, at the world. Even at the slightest things that would peeve me, someone would always be there to tell me how I should be feeling. Oh, but don't be angry.


Why not?

A smiling face. The most dangerous people in the world are often not the ones with tattoos all over their body or hard serious grimaces where ever they go. It's the person with the smiling face that has the most opportunity to cause the most harm. I am not one of those people. I have grown a level head. (More about that on a later post maybe.)

What happens to it all? If you are not allowed to let it out, where does it go?

EDIT:
Relative.